Random Chain of Thought

-If I was studying medicine now, I know for sure what I wanna specialize in. A psychiatrist.
-A criminal one would be cool. I find myself constantly wondering and analyzing about the actions and the mind of the human.
-But another part of me objects to the many assumptions of science: having your own brother diagnosed with ADHD and prescribed suppressive drugs don't help boost my personal opinion on psychiatrists.
-perhaps we have to find a holistic way of solving the problem. The root of the problem.
-which for me, I personally believe that Christ, and the power of the human touch, is the answer.
-of which, if I was studying medicine right now, I know I'll make a lousy psychiatrist.
-I would have to think more of ways to revolutionize the ways of medicine, a solution that reaches far beyond oral suppressants and pep talks.
-that of course, would be really challenging and appealing to me, but
-of course that may bring success, not fulfillment.
-and I, being a person of simple pleasures, would choose happiness over success.
-looking at pop sitting on the couch,
-he's a successful man. a man who's probly considered as one of the most inspiring leaders who's inspired others to be leaders.
-when you try to talk to him, it's most likely that his mind is elsewhere.
-it reminds me of myself. and i ask, do I want to be like that someday.
-more importantly, would any man leave me if I turned out like that some day?
-mom doesn't like me to think so much of this.
-maybe I shouldn't. No matter how much I stew my thoughts,
-no matter how much I strategize, my fate is not my own.
-because no matter how much you try, you can't control love.
-you can be friends, make the first move, look good, show the best of yourself,
-but you cannot be totally sure that the one you have your eye's on is going to stay interested.
-I can now honestly tell myself that I haven't the capacity to work on a relationship.
-I am frustratingly self-centered. It's a disease. It makes me say things that I don't mean, do things I don't mean to do.
-and the more I stew, I know there's so much to do: get a car, a job, manage my house, manage my social life, see the world, all in a bid to attain enough confidence and self-suffciency to prove to myself to be the best I can.
-but the more I look at others, the more I think this: she didn't have to work to get into a relationship, why should I?
-its a circular argument, you see. I'm arguing with myself. Arguing with God.
-I've finally gotten into the heart of the matter.
-firstly, I do not know what I need. I realise now that I am after instant gratification. Throw me a bf right now, I do not think I will be able to be what he needs, as I am an extremely selfish person.
-secondly. I am afraid to surrender to God's will.
-And lastly. I do not like to wait.

Something Sien To Do durin' the Summer Hols

As some of you all know, holidays are a marvelous way to:
1) Pig out and parasite in your parent's home
2) Buy and hoad all the stuffs you can get to smuggle back to Aust, the Land Where Everything Is Expensive.
3) Abandon your blog.
4) Be totally antisocial.
5) Be a social butterfly.
6) Speak all the broken English all you want.

You get the idea.
I, for one have accepted a challenge from a dear dear friend who's obsessed with her weight.
Thus we get to LOSE WEIGHT during our holidays!!

But seriously this is playing way outta my favor.
Firstly I have to go through Christmas.Then a trip to America, where its is FREEZING cold there, as its Summer in Aust, thus the Winter there.
And in Winter, you GET FAT.
Don't even think of what those crap the mags tell you about losing weight in winter.

Aaaaaand....there's CNY!!!!

See? No hope liao.

and my friend is spending her hols in Aust, where she can focus without undue distraction.
NO FAIR!!!!!!!!!

On a happy note though, I have the advantage of family support such as:
1) Having my brother Jord abuse me on how fat am I when he checks the seatbelt,
2) Having my other brother Andy force me to his prom, giving me another reason to shape up,
3) Having my father say, you're not fat la....while in fact, he's secretly happy that I'm fat, so that he doesn't have to be fat alone.
4) Having my dear mom being so understanding and supportive meals-wise, and then say: "Why wanna be thin??? You want to get more sick like Miss XXX ar? Tai nyor lo, I never wan to be thin, just normal. So don't you get that idea into your head!!"

To which I cheekily replied: "Too late, I've had it in my head liao!" :P

So I'm going to use this place as a food diary.
Note that all is calculated and custom-made with regards to healthy realistic eating, and BMI.
Before weight: 64kg.
Optimal Aim* : 55kg.
Basic Lifestyle Changes
Wake up at 7am everyday. Sleep at latest 11pm.
Eat a big breakfast. Small lunch, dinner vegan.
Focus on vege and fruits, and protein.
Workout for 3 times a week.
Refrain from icecream and naps, for now.

Remarks:
So far, its working. I'm down to 61kg for now. Have to focus more on overall toning. For the America trip, I'll just have to do the diet thing...
*with realistic aims in 2 and a half months. Maximum losing can be only until 50kg. But that will be nuts.

Looks Like We Have An Abandoned Blog Here!

Well well well...... What have we here?

An abandoned blog!!!!

And what can I do with an abandoned blog??

Especially when the probability of anyone sien enough stumbling upon this is near zero???

(evil smile)

MAKE MISCHIEF!

Especially after......

ahem....

THE END OF THE FIRST YEAR FOR ARCHITECTURE!!!!!!!!

You know what it makes me feel like doing?

Uh-huh...oh yeah...

DANCING man...do some mindless sexy dancing like Hugh Grant....

I know some of you guys saw me dance more than once, but believe me, I haven't even started. Cos personally, I believe dancing to be a form of expression. Not meaning to insult my fellow members of the same sex in that club in Sydney, but puh-lease.

What's the point of dancing like that...

when you have no intention of doing some activity that is similiar to...er...dancing if you call pushing your hips dancing with someone else after that?

Okay, maybe say, pushing your hips is some form of dancing...cos heck, the King of Pop does something else!

Michael Jackson performing Billie Jean

Conclusion: I shouldnt complain.

Cos its a form of a unique art that Michael Jackson, whose dance moves I personally admire, have perfected and made who he is today.

And no, I don't mean touching his crotch. Its way more than that.

Its confidence. I love dancing, because I can express my feminine confidence that I don't really wanna show for some weird reason we girls have to annoy the hell out of guys. XD

If they really know how much of that confidence we have, it'll burn them up.

even more than the Human Torch.

Which is the reason why I enjoy dances even like those from the Pointer Sisters.

I don't want to get sick, I don't want to get sick.

I will NOT get sick.

oh, and for people who are interested in getting to know the opposite sex, (hint*, hehe)
check this out!
http://www.loveandrespect.com/content/clips_of_conference.php

besides organizing a drama for the dinner I'm going to attend, I'm looking for a partner to go with as well to save cost...hahaha....

Depressed Post

Marks required to get in UNSW: 3 Credits, 1 Distinction
Calculation of MY marks so Far:
Communication in The Built Environment 2: unsure...most likely Credit
History and Theory of Architecture: 31% out of 100%...possible marks Credit
Architecture Design 1B: 52.5% out of 100%.....

And note that Architecture Design is worth 2 times the mark....THUS....

I need to get 92% in Architecture Design Beach Box to 100% CONFIRM get accepted in UNSW!

I'm so depressed right now.

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Okay, I'm moving on. Back to work.

People, please don't mention how's my studies going. It's so shit right now.

So Dead.

I am so dead....

I have approached death a few days ago. You know what? If you wanna install new guinea pig programs like ArchiCAD on Vista, make sure you have a good Graphic Card.
Or else...................you'll end up like me, kena bug!

People take weeks (minimum a week) to render and create basic model, and I, on the other hand, took ONE FREAKING DAY to re-create the <#%*@ model!


So people, especially graphic people, or students for the matter, take my advice.
Oh, and I've decided after history, I will not procrastinate anymore.

erm....then why am I blogging here instead of doing my essay...hmmm

yea.

So why am I dead?

Because...............I'm going to do my history essay from scratch, using less than 72 hours!

Haha!
I'm going to try anyway. I've finished a report in 1 day before.
See why I'm so dead now?


I'll upload my favourite rendered image here when I'm free.

Sorry for the temporary abandonment guys...

It has occured to me that some people might read this blog to check on the co-authors' Archi life, and I apologize for my irresponsibility for "abandoning" this blog...as I realise that Architecture now is a crucial part of my life...whether I like it or not.

These days I have been attempting several methods of relaxation and anti-stress management...(which some of you students can try! hehehe):

1) Cooking. Seriously. And not just cook for yourself!...recently I have cooked for my friends as well...I have sort of perfected my spaggetti carbonara with NO CREAM=less fat! muahahaha

(okay I look kinda fat and untidy here but it has been worth it...)

Heard of make your own cake and eat it too? That's another advantage. Lol.

Then, go crazy with your friends and chat with them.

2) MAKE and PLAN time to relax. Set some goals to finish your assignment by so and so date. If you don't make it on time, chill. (I've learnt that) Then stress some more after that. It will motivate you to finish it on time.

To prevent breakdown from a post-hand-in, go on an unscheduled random trip with the people you've always wanting to get to know with. It won't hurt.

(went out to Salamander Bay with my 'family' to watch Daniel play football...really fun and took some great pics! He looks yeng ler...)

After THAT you can start stressing on your next assignment.

3) Don't be afraid to cancel things or mentally cross out things that interfere with the progress with your assignment. It will take a load off your mind.....for me, it was cancelling the trip to Sydney and visit to Aili's place...

You can sooth the initial guilt by treating your loved ones later! Quality time for quality work!

Eg: Sad cannot visit my friend in Syd but will plan to visit her later (and longer) in second break

4) Do your work with a friend! So far my week has been quite productive, as Helen and T live close by. Its rewarding, after working and tearing your hair and moaning "wo yao kuai feng la!!!!" ....its good to relive your stress with another instead of going crazy by yourself.

Then you can watch something random like a China-made series.

hope most of you will find this useful!....i might work differently with each person, but the key is to keep your mind stimulated and rested...