My hands are a bit shaky from hunger, but that's because I want to talk to YOU, first before I get started with real work...You know la...once I've started with work, there's no way to stop!
THERE's so much to do this week!
1. sushi session with Kajsa, hopefully
2.talking with Vivien, hopefully
3. MAjor Project + Presentation for marketing due this week!!!
4. Design project gotta get started
(okay I'm listening to hillsong newest UNited...and its so awesome!!!)
5....History!!! I havent started writing anything...
But I'm going to get started right after this.
Firstly I'll say first how much I am amazed by You. How real You are to me. I have seen YOur goodness in my life, and I'm deciding to really, and I promise You, really take you seriously in every aspect in my life.
And You know God, how I feel about promises.
I simply have to type all of this down. Because that's my primary way of expressing myself.
I used to be a bit fearful, more than just fearful and over-controlling over my future.
NOW, I know that I have someone taking care of my plans.
And because You are so much better at making plans than I am, MY main point is...
I'm handing it all to You.
Since You have promised favor on me, I'm going to bet on You, God.
I'm going to make time and prioritize time for You.
Because life is getting more interesting. And I rather live one day in Your presence, than a thousand days in this world.
God...
In this week, I'm going to compile a set of goals for this year.
Promise 1: Alright, and I'll wake up 5:30am every day for quality time with You. (except sundays)
If I was nearly able to that, then I believe that I am able to wake up.
Help me to wake up okay...
On Work:
Lord, I get so much advice and varying influences on whether I should work, or not.
Lord God, I need to know if it is wise for me to do so next semester. True, there will be free days, but I need to know if it is wise for me to do so...as I do not want to jeapordize my studies.
On Church:
Lord God, I need to know for sure, if Hillsong is the right church for me to go to.
there are people who say that things that I am not sure of. Give me the wisdom to discern these information. I want to do what's Your will, not what people think is right.
This I know: no church, absolutely no church is perfect. There will always be a church that has a defect leader, or there will be always a preacher that trips up, there will be always boring churches with sleepy hymns. This I know firsthand. I have seen many churches, Lord, to know this. This again, is part of Your plan.
Personally, I feel that in every message, everyone must listen to it actively; in the sense that they are discerning and taking it with accordance to the Spirit. A mature Christian, with a personal r/s with God, because they know the voice and touch of their father so well, they will know what is right. That's what I think anyway.
And God...
You know I dream of becoming a cell-leader. But I feel that I lack something...well heck, we all always feel inadequate. But Lord God hey, I trust in Your timing. If there is something that You want me to do, I will do it. I will do my very human best to do it.
Lord...
In front of me, are the plans for this week.
I hand them all to You.
I will carry them out the best I can.
But because these are human plans, I will trust You and let You be in control.
Urgh, my back hurts from Captain Ball. God I hope this goes away soon...
God I...
thank You so much for loving me as I am, being patient with my silly blurness and laziness when I say I wanna serve You, I did not know I would be even considering taking up part-time (work-wise..cos in real life we are all in full-time) ministry.
I will do whatever it takes to be closer to You, God!
Love ya,
Rach
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